Holding on to anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.-Buddha
It has been some time since I have posted on this site. It is the same for the other website/blogs. 2016 has been a really effed up year for me and it has nothing to do with the election. Real life made serious issues and I got into a productivity slump. It took nearly the whole year to get out of the slump especially since it wasn’t recognized for the trap that it was. It was almost too late for me. 2016 began with so much potential. I was becoming the writer, I called myself. Promises were made that later became chains as time moved on. Personal deadlines were either pushed back or missed completely. Apologies were made where they could be and the whole situation was agonized over. Writing never completely stopped, there are several drafts of blog essays that will never be seen. I did stop posting which is bad for the website/blogs, this brand is built on content. I was feeling horrible and I didn’t know what to call it, frustration, ennui, listlessness, tired. I went through all those words and I was getting angry about it. Then sometime in the summer I started the morning pages again. It is my 4th morning page book. This time I kept to the rules of 3 pages, I didn’t keep to the time constraints because I am not a morning person. In fact, I have a slight dislike for morning people. The exercise reminded me why I need to be a writer. Why I like fiction? Why I like stories, that are sometimes books, which become movies and in some cases TV shows. Everything gets connected.
This post was started in September the plan was to post it and use the remaining three months to bring the website/blogs out of the red. Then as started earlier real life kicked me in the knees in October. The month of my new beginnings. There was no plan B and the wobbly beginnings were dusted. Now it is December and 2017 are few weeks away. It is the ultimate new beginning. Adjusting to a new kind of life is difficult and isn’t quite mastered yet. I like the poorly named thejoexperimentblog.com and I will continue to work on it. I don’t know if my three cents about tv shows are worth it or not. But I will start adding them. I will also admit to anyone reading, I am not the reader I used to be. I’m an audio book listener and when I’m reviewing a book in that form I will disclose it. I have passed the 300+ word count challenge it is time to up the stakes to 500+. While I typed that I cringed believing I am setting myself up for failure again. It has happened before. Enough with that tangent, done with self-fulfilling prophecy.
It is the beginning of December and there is no law that stated, I can’t start my new beginnings now and take them into the new year. At the end of this month with all my best wishes I will post some reviews of the books I have been reading or listening to. I am not professing perfection, this is only attempting to keep my word.