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This is a brief post about what has been happening.  I had a plan I really did, but  my life BK2got in the way  and everything went to shit real fast.  It lasted about 3 weeks, I am still a little dizzy from it.    The set back is devastating.  I lost my  burgeoning system.   Getting it back to where the hell I needed it to be is going to more work.   I hate when crap like this happens.  I don’t bounce well.  I am at the end of the my third decade of life.  My optimism level are lower than before.

Because usually when I fall it is my own damn fault.  I might be thinking unconsciously that I deserve what every is  happening or not happening.   Those quotes like, “nothing is free”,  “success comes from hard work”,  swim through my brain.  I whine on my blogs about being a loser.  I try to be positive at the end but that doesn’t always work.   I lose the focus on the saved draft post.  That is the worst.   Then I try to kill the bad mood with my favorite TV Shows, Asian dramas and online games.

When I am in a better mood or I see that a story in a drama could have been written better. lb2 I remember that I am writer.  I have a million stories in me that need to come out.  I have writer references to help me.  So what is keeping me from being that person I want to be.   Fear, misunderstandings and low confidence are just to name a few.  Obstacles that many people have faced and over come.  I need the determination of other people.  I need to fake determination until I have it for myself.   I ends these whiny blogs with positive note or at least I try.  Tomorrow is another day and no one knows the future.

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About J.C. Henry

I am a writer and Podcaster. Most of my stories are in the speculative fiction genre. The Red Mushroom Podcast is about writing and the writing business, is currently in development.
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